Well, today sucked. My boyfriend is stressed out and is having a terrible time. This worries me, makes me scared. God.. Hate to say it, but I'm selfish. I wanted to be left alone. I don't know what to do!

Right now, I do NOT want my boyfriend. I do not want to be around him. I do NOT want to know what is going on. I have my own problems to deal with! But.. He's dealt with my problems. He has helped me a lot. Fuck.. I just wish I knew what to do. I want some guidance from him. I want some help. Right now though, he needs my help and my support, through thick and thin. Its hard, but no one said relationships were easy. Unfortunately, I already knew that. *deep breath...* Ok, I am going to trust him in what he is doing. I KNOW he can get through this and I will try to help him in any way I can. I believe he can do it. I have to tell him that. I really need to tell him that. Also, I need to set aside some time to give him a backrub or a nice bath. Whenever he wants to, whenever he is ready for a break, I'll do that. Maybe he would be in for watching the sunset together. I'll bring some Jasmine Green Tea and a blanket. =) I think he will like that.

I forgot how writing things out makes me feel so much better.

Also, I just got a text from my boyfriend and I told him I believe in him. God, I love him so fucking much. =)

He probably did just need some space and time. Also, I need to respect his need to NOT talk about what is going on. I want to make this work so badly and it will. I love you, Chase.

Good night everyone.